I used to live in an estate with less than 100 households for 20 years. The estate has an open car park which everyone has to walk past when they enter. Having a keen eye for observations, I could remember almost all the cars and their car plate numbers.
In that estate, there was a particular old Mercedes with lacklustre gold trimmings and body colour. Despite that, it was fairly outstanding in the sea of newer cars. It has been around ever since we moved there. My siblings and I were acquainted with that family as their children and us were schoolmates.
One day in the late 1990s, when I was still in the University, I learnt that the owner of that Mercedes passed on at the age of 58. When I left the wake, his unmistakable car was parked next to the tentage. His car plate number 5899 stood out strikingly. It dawned on me then that 58 stood for the age he passed on, while 99 could mean 'final' or 'an ending'. It gave me goosebumps - the possible link between the car plate and the owner's life.
It was not until 2005 that I learnt from a numerology workshop that the number '99', among its few representations, indeed meant 'an ending' or 'accident prone'. The number was summed up as 'cessation at 58'. Upon reflections, the car plate was an old one and the owner could have had it for many years that the vibration of the number had interwoven into the owner's personal set of numbers.
If he had the chance to be more discerning with his choice of numbers, some undesirable effects could have been reduced.
In violet love and joy,
P.S: This personal account is in no way trying to show any disrespect to the family mentioned or any person or persons who might be related to this particular set of numbers mentioned in one way or another. This is just a personal first-hand experience which is used here as a case study for all those who are ready for this information.
I have never experienced the need for forgiveness so real and so close until the beginning of 2013. It was another out-of-this-world experience.
It was the Chinese New Year season then. My late grandaunt, who left us about 2 years ago, appeared in my mind at least five times. I knew there must be a good reason. That was not the first time she tried to initiate contact after her passing. Even though my late grandaunt and I were hardly in contact during her old age, she remained a caring and loving figure who played a significant role in my growing years. When I saw her fleeting appearances in my mind, I knew it signal a potential communication. I pondered a long while before I decided to let her message come through.
Her key message was unforgiveness. There was disappointment and a lack of acceptance before she passed on. Even though she was not able to talk in the last few years of her life, these feelings were in her heart. She passed on with unforgiveness. She told me that she was in another realm to learn to forgive and she will probably take between one and three years before she could move on. The message was eventually passed on to the intended person the very next day through a cousin of mine at a coincidental meeting in a coffeeshop. All these happened in 12 hours - never underestimate the Universe.
This communication showed the importance to pass on without unforgiveness. Do not trivialise self-forgiveness. It is essential to live a meaningful life now and beyond. If there is anything that you would like to do, do it. Live a life of no regrets.
In violet love and joy,
P.S: Other messages contained in the communication with my late grandaunt are omitted to protect sanctity of the whole communication.
1. Have you ever forgiven someone?
2. How long did you take to forgive that person?
3. How did you feel after that?
In the usual turn of events after a conflict or a storm, we are normally asked to forgive other people. We paused and considered. Yes, it is forgivable. Apologies were heard and accepted. And we moved on.
Did you really move on?
In conflicts of great distress, broken promises and tested integrity, we might not have moved on completely. Forgiveness was done for other people. It was superficial. We have forgotten to forgive ourselves.
Forgiveness is not something we do for others. We do it for ourselves. It truly involves the self only. Self-forgiveness is never an easy one, especially when the hurt is deep. It is worrying that self-forgiveness is sadly overlooked most of the time. And we end up carrying this burden of unforgiving self as long as we live and, sometimes, beyond.
When you forgive wholly and truly, you release yourself from a painful burden. Self-forgiveness does not mean what happened was okay, and it does not mean that person was right or should be welcome in your life. It just means you have a made peace with the pain, and are ready to let it go from within you.
How do you forgive yourself?
Self-forgiveness is a journey. For some people, it will take a short time; for others, it may be a long-drawn process. It depends on a person's character, determination and life experiences to forgive himself/herself.
Learn to look at a conflict from different perspectives, even from the other person's perspective. Comfort yourself each time you analyse the conflict again. There should be no hiding of conflict in your heart. It would be like digging a grave for self-forgiveness, and eventually it would be very difficult for you to let go. Face the conflict yourself, and very slowly, you would allow yourself to forgive within you.
'Peace comes from within. Do not seek it without.'
- Gautama Buddha
In violet love and joy,